The REAL real world

Dnt just think

Mon, 01 Oct 2012 05:03:05 -0400

Dear t.
Plz dnt think I just sit around.. and think about could haves and should bes. But I do have a physical relationship with a long term friend.
At times I feel she wants more than what im willing to offer.. which is sad.
I wanna feel burning attractions.s
And it starts with a kiss! Something I’m realizing I’m starting not to like

Lay it out

Mon, 01 Oct 2012 04:59:31 -0400

There’s things I want.. and it confuses me. I feel like I love princess. I miss daisy and I’m jealous. I think about lauren constantly. I want others and the sad thing is I don’t think I’m ready for anyone.
I mean everyone knows u gotta love yrself before u can love anybody else. I love myself… maybe too much :( I’m always looking for the next best thing.
Things need to change.

# live life.. dnt let it live u

Hmm truth time

Mon, 01 Oct 2012 04:53:59 -0400

Ya..its hard to say I don’t feel a little bit jealous when I see daisy kissing number two.. she trys to play so happy.. and everything is about him..
Ya I dnt wish I was him. I wish she feeled the same way about me..

Chika what

Mon, 01 Oct 2012 01:19:39 -0400

Lord knows I love my alone time.
But lately I’ve been craving a special bond.. just a chill fun girl who can be my lover and friend.
Sex doesn’t even have to be an issue… I just wanna actually feel attracted to someone again.. physically and emotionaly

This bitter feeling

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 12:59:11 -0400

There’s this feeling
I can’t quite put my finger on it.

Now the weather is getting colder… I occasionally get this feeling.
Its like being outside when its raining.. and longint to be ib a warm home.. its kinda like laying in yr bed on a muggy stormy day wondering about the world outside..
It reminds me of lauren.. all this time later.
Cold, longing, and curious.
That makes me miss lo.

Catch her up

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 12:55:36 -0400

I do miss daisy sometimes.
Seeing her happy with the second guy she had sex with is funky . But I imagine her being real happy with him… and if anything.

I’m glad she’s happy :)

I cannot hold on

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 12:52:59 -0400

Dear agony,
Yr such a bitter sweet pill.
To be single or half a whole
But ever notice.
Nobody wants somebody that noone wants..
Attraction is contagious!

Love life

Sun, 30 Sep 2012 12:50:39 -0400

Yea I do miss princess sometimes!
I haven’t seen or talked to her since she moved.. well things change. So ima just live it

So far gone

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 12:16:17 -0400

Been about 3 months since I last posted. A lot has happened. Well I got a new car! Then crashed and totaled it! Still haven’t talked to princess since she moved. Still dnt talk to Daisy. Had my first 4 day hospital visit. Made an instagram :). I needa post more :(

Past 2 weeks have been good. I didnt like seeing princess on marks bday… but whatever I...

Mon, 25 Jun 2012 05:19:43 -0400

Past 2 weeks have been good. I didnt like seeing princess on marks bday… but whatever I didn’t say more than 2 words at a time. So ya. I do miss daisy. She’s so happy with #2 drew but whatever. I’m happy for her also. :). Maybe sometime soon it will be my turn to be happy again. But I’m not rushin it :))

No use waiting up

Fri, 18 May 2012 05:01:57 -0400

Well ill admit. Watching criminal minds late without princess will be def never the same. :( Ill always miss her.

Hell night

Wed, 16 May 2012 13:27:28 -0400

Well lastnite was hell in. Bottle at work. I busted it so we could have a good visit from the big bossea and when 11pm rolled around I got a new ass torn for me by my Merchandiser carlos. I wish… just once I could slap him… he insults so many things about me… and it does make me sad. But w.e I hope .. that everything works out so I can become a front end supervisor at vons.

Catch up

Wed, 16 May 2012 06:37:42 -0400

So princess is gone. I’m really sad. I keep thinking of all the good times and all. It was fun. Ill miss her. Now my good friend is moving to my house. Its cool. But I’m nervous. We all have a lot to talk about. And best thing. Ima work everything out. Once and for all.

Tomorrow

Wed, 02 May 2012 03:19:58 -0400

Should be crazy for sure. I’m gnna be rlly fly when we go out. Ima try try not to be obviousburn prin… but she’s gnna be crazy. Esp at this club. Fuck it. Gotta be cool .. its ashs bday.. so excited.. well ya. Hope it turns out bomb dude ;)

Before Tonight. ;)

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 02:19:18 -0400

Before Tonight. ;)

Haha well ya.

Sat, 28 Apr 2012 02:18:38 -0400

Damn. I tell u. I look at pics of daisy… Fuck it. Michelle And ya. She’s happy with number 2 Haha. Still ima let go… she wasn’t worthy of it… like sam said … lol Yolo. Shes not my main… So fuck it. Boo just died.

Isanyoneup.com

Fri, 27 Apr 2012 05:42:17 -0400

Haha really hunter? I’m sad because now… There’s no more isa background checks for the crazy chicks I meet!

What ever will I do!!!!!???

Really

Thu, 26 Apr 2012 14:32:05 -0400

First two days at school were cool. So princess is off wed. She asked me to hangout. Get tipsy. Ha so we go get a bttl and we get home she instantly gets on the phone. Talking to her ex dude. Talked to him all nite.. I tried to stay occupied. Did some hw.. played some games. She comes gets me for a shot.. I put back on my headphones… she left… she comes back out not on the phone… makes food.. and goes to her room for the nite. I was mad. I txt her. ” ew really yr just not gnna hang out with me? W.e I’m mad. ” So that’s that…. it gave me nightmares… ha no joke. So lame

Today

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 17:15:51 -0400

Chinatown loves Two paychecks at work Cute girls. Getting organized. Back to reality . . . . Love u t ;)

Saturday.

Sun, 22 Apr 2012 17:14:59 -0400

I woke up and went into the room with the girls to wake them up.. they were already up and we hung out for a while in princesss room. She ofcourse wasn’t home. They left and I went to Chinatown to hangout w a friend and pick up something cool for my friend. I came back quick… only a few train stops away. Met up with a family friend and gave her her Chinatown suprise. I went home and was rlly tired.. so I took a nap.. woke up around 7 watched a episode of game of thrones with mark and then he left with his bf… I chilled watched movies and fell asleep. I woke up at 5 when princess finally came home.