Dnt just think
Dear t. Plz dnt think I just sit around.. and think about could haves and should bes. But I do have a physical relationship with a long term friend. At times I feel she wants more than what im willing to offer.. which is sad. I wanna feel burning attractions.s And it starts with a kiss! Something I’m realizing I’m starting not to like
Lay it out
There’s things I want.. and it confuses me. I feel like I love princess. I miss daisy and I’m jealous. I think about lauren constantly. I want others and the sad thing is I don’t think I’m ready for anyone. I mean everyone knows u gotta love yrself before u can love anybody else. I love myself… maybe too much :( I’m always looking for the next best thing....
Hmm truth time
Ya..its hard to say I don’t feel a little bit jealous when I see daisy kissing number two.. she trys to play so happy.. and everything is about him.. Ya I dnt wish I was him. I wish she feeled the same way about me..
Lord knows I love my alone time. But lately I’ve been craving a special bond.. just a chill fun girl who can be my lover and friend. Sex doesn’t even have to be an issue… I just wanna actually feel attracted to someone again.. physically and emotionaly
This bitter feeling
There’s this feeling I can’t quite put my finger on it. Now the weather is getting colder… I occasionally get this feeling. Its like being outside when its raining.. and longint to be ib a warm home.. its kinda like laying in yr bed on a muggy stormy day wondering about the world outside.. It reminds me of lauren.. all this time later. Cold, longing, and curious. That...
Catch her up
I do miss daisy sometimes. Seeing her happy with the second guy she had sex with is funky . But I imagine her being real happy with him… and if anything. I’m glad she’s happy :)
I cannot hold on
Dear agony, Yr such a bitter sweet pill. To be single or half a whole But ever notice. Nobody wants somebody that noone wants.. Attraction is contagious!
Yea I do miss princess sometimes! I haven’t seen or talked to her since she moved.. well things change. So ima just live it
So far gone
Been about 3 months since I last posted. A lot has happened. Well I got a new car! Then crashed and totaled it! Still haven’t talked to princess since she moved. Still dnt talk to Daisy. Had my first 4 day hospital visit. Made an instagram :). I needa post more :(
Past 2 weeks have been good. I didnt like seeing princess on marks bday… but whatever I didn’t say more than 2 words at a time. So ya. I do miss daisy. She’s so happy with #2 drew but whatever. I’m happy for her also. :). Maybe sometime soon it will be my turn to be happy again. But I’m not rushin it :))
No use waiting up
Well ill admit. Watching criminal minds late without princess will be def never the same. :( Ill always miss her.
Well lastnite was hell in. Bottle at work. I busted it so we could have a good visit from the big bossea and when 11pm rolled around I got a new ass torn for me by my Merchandiser carlos. I wish… just once I could slap him… he insults so many things about me… and it does make me sad. But w.e I hope .. that everything works out so I can become a front end supervisor at vons.
So princess is gone. I’m really sad. I keep thinking of all the good times and all. It was fun. Ill miss her. Now my good friend is moving to my house. Its cool. But I’m nervous. We all have a lot to talk about. And best thing. Ima work everything out. Once and for all.
Should be crazy for sure. I’m gnna be rlly fly when we go out. Ima try try not to be obviousburn prin… but she’s gnna be crazy. Esp at this club. Fuck it. Gotta be cool .. its ashs bday.. so excited.. well ya. Hope it turns out bomb dude ;)
Haha well ya.
Damn. I tell u. I look at pics of daisy… Fuck it. Michelle And ya. She’s happy with number 2 Haha. Still ima let go… she wasn’t worthy of it… like sam said … lol Yolo. Shes not my main… So fuck it. Boo just died.
Haha really hunter? I’m sad because now… There’s no more isa background checks for the crazy chicks I meet! What ever will I do!!!!!???
First two days at school were cool. So princess is off wed. She asked me to hangout. Get tipsy. Ha so we go get a bttl and we get home she instantly gets on the phone. Talking to her ex dude. Talked to him all nite.. I tried to stay occupied. Did some hw.. played some games. She comes gets me for a shot.. I put back on my headphones… she left… she comes back out not on the phone…...
Chinatown loves Two paychecks at work Cute girls. Getting organized. Back to reality . . . . Love u t ;)
I woke up and went into the room with the girls to wake them up.. they were already up and we hung out for a while in princesss room. She ofcourse wasn’t home. They left and I went to Chinatown to hangout w a friend and pick up something cool for my friend. I came back quick… only a few train stops away. Met up with a family friend and gave her her Chinatown suprise. I went home and...
The big party I was excited when I woke up Friday… we began with some breakfast then we ate more and I felt like I couldn’t stop eating. We drank early in the day.. and we all met up and went on a hike. I took the pic i wasnt in it.. it was sam mark, gus, stevie b, his gf, and myself. And stves dog and her dog We hiked to the water falls of eaton canyon and back. Went home for a...
Woke up at my friends house and chilled out until about 4 and ran errands for the party… we cleaned the house and laid brick in the back yard.. wr drank some drank and I went home with.some friends hung out and went to bedd.
Was cool… woke up late at home and relaxed.. at nite I went to my friend guss house and chilled and ending up sleeping there! We got so tipsy… just 3 of us… it was a good boys nite!
Bestie day We chilled and decided to go on a journey to the beach on the train. We messed up lol We took the gold line to union station. Then went red to blue to green to redondo beach. It lookd close on the map. We failed bad. Lol walked forever in one wrong direction then forever in the right direction.. but never stopped at the beach.. it was 2 mi away on the steet we were on. We travelled so...
Day 1 was fun… my parents came over to visit and we just hung out it was fun. I miss them. We ate bomb tacos at nite.. and during the day my dad worked and fixed my car. I was stoked
In our ride
This week has been fun. I went on vacation from work and school. Sometimes u dnt want things like that to end. Ya I’m happy. I enjoyed it so much
She loves these looser guys so easily.. I’m confused how she loves them sometimes, why she crys for an hour before coming home. And complains she has noone but ya.. she’s stressed.. she lived it up with a guy who just had her while his gf and him were on break. Now does this sign of weakness make her less attractive? Never.
So last nite while I was with princess a girl tried to hit me up for some late nite fun. If only I got the call… woulda be a fun burn to princess
Ya when ur sitting with her and she’s exchanging nudes with some guy. Lol rly? So funny.
Hmm I do fight with my feelings Princess is one crazy girl. She def got me jealous. And confused. And ya. When u think to much. U make mistakes. I think about every word I say to her. Ew.
So bella The beautiful girl I met in geology dept. Wow. So much pretties… so lotta me lol
So its dirty Its not becoming of a good friend But my friend is saying him and and his girlfriend are going to take a break.. and she wants me. I’m confused
Princess so bad that I watched the last episode of one tree hill with her.. just so I could spend time wirh her ;) Ugh I just missed her
Oh man I wont lie the girls in my geology class are so bomb. Drea is beautiful.. arminean and gorgeous The other girl is gorgeous. I still dnt know her name… she’s fancy.. like nails done hair did everything. Tomorrow ill make everyone brownies… I’m so nervous lol
Man it would be so cool to own a bakery.. Sell the bomb stuff u make. Dang.
She ain't you
Met the prettiest geology girl last Monday She was gorgeous and nice Anyway this Wednesday I’m making my geology class Brownies… yum but I’m dreading making 42 Brownies lol the packaging and decorating :(
Yay Happy easter I can come back Ugh only 8 days until my vacation week… this time were staying up to date ;)
Friends without benefits
U know that movie? The ones with benefits I knoe they do their best to make the best attractive leading male and female Mila is bomb in that movie Exactly what I want. That person could look anyway but that attitude is priceless. Even timberlake killed it He was perfect dude. Man haha makes me realize everyone is in relationships. Ugh
Over my dead body- Drake Definitely reminds me of Daisy That’s funny Shes crazy. Def nothing for me lol sometimes time snaps u outa things ha. Some girls just like attention
Love u tumblr
Damn. 1. Princess and her bf are nasty.. he’s busted 2. I hung out with her bestie friend to make her jealous… it wrked until she spilled that this guy has heen doing her in the butt.. so sick 3. Lo hit me up and she’s good. Thw bad thing. She has a drinking problem.. and thinks being around me will make her drink. 4. Class has been great. There are 2 pretty girls who...
Princess the sender
So she shuts her door to send this guy nasty pictures… wow
Daisys always wanted
Ugh the worst thing about still talking to daisy is seeing all the guys who still like her.. ugh. Nasty
Ugh I swear. Princess and I haven’t spoke for 18 days. Yes I’ve been counting. Now tonight I’m laying in the living room and she says nothing… ew so weird
Show me yr teeth
Ugh I need braces. But as soon as my car thing is fixed. Here they come lol
Still.. even 3 weeks in and starting the 4.. I’m not excited about geology. I mean I dnt know if u ever had a 3 hour lecture? Its hellllll Lol Better start getting excited about it lol
So last nite we headed over to my boi gussys house for a pow wow chill and smoke out. It was myself. Gus. And sam And mark and his boyfriend And marks bfs two roomies Xiomara and alicia. They are chill… but mannnn lemme tell u this.. ali is so cute lol
Met her new
Made her my girl Ha not yet but I’m looking toward the future I met her on the train and we clicked Ima play it cool… but she’s edgy. Piercing and tats. I’m interested cause she deep into theater.. love that <3
Ha so daisy and I are texting and she tells that he and number two never had sex… when I still had the text that she admitted to it. So wheni forwarded it to her… she got caught up. Ew
Catch up again
Dude so I always fall so far behind but ya. 1. School this semester is so boring. I mean I’m not trying to be social. Ita just lonely 2. Haven’t spoken to princess.. which is getting awkward now I might need her help with a school project. 3. I’m so blah today lol